To Do
Many aspects of individual experience are subjective and without language – existing inside of our thoughts and feelings, invisible to those around us. To Do explores the internal dialogue of navigating and managing multiple invisible disabilities. This dialogue of what needs to be done to care for the self and to heal is laborious and exhausting, especially because one never feels as though they are doing enough. Furthermore, one may oscillate between a commitment to self-management and living the best they can, and feeling like the effort is too much and that it is easier to stay in bed.
The lived experience of disability can often be without language. How do you describe living in chronic pain? How do you describe an experience that is invisible to the world around you? Without politicizing and naming the internal to do list as a type of labour, the repetitive internal dialogue may be misread as pathology.
